a debating weekend.

Tanjung karang camp.
after this training camp, ive realized that i
1.missed taraweh prayer 3 times
2. missed bukak puasa at the exact time -2 times
3.having to see people eat drink especially after become thirst for every speech
4. know that im kinda unstructured in giving speech
5. knowing keat lim is a third year, not a fourth year, despite his size
6.get to see tanjung karang accomodation first b4 ms posting next year.
7. knowing that i still couldn't go to royals this year because of finals and i still dumb in debating.
8. how sympathetic response really halt a debater from giving more poi's expeacially when debating during puasa.

so, a list of the motions ive been through:
1. th believe in state finding for elite atheletes-gov
2. th banned online gaming site from advertising- adju
3. th will rejuvenate economically depressed area with casino-obs
4. th will dismantle race based party, bp style-og
5.th would banned goggle from archiving all the books in the world.-gov
6.thw let proton go-opp
7. thw banned biofuels, bp style-cg
8. thb that it won't leak, humor round-gov-case : proposal-boost porno industry in the world.
9. th would banned cosmetic surgery-gov

a very tiring weekend.
now im recuperating, reading notes esp physiology lectures.

formatives

i came to the hall quite late today, lucky thing they didn't start the xm yet. Today xm was on the respiratory module. it was little challenging, yet i answered the ques on acute mountain sickness wrongly. Dunno what i was thinking by then.

fear...

ealier today, i couldn't sleep. Frequently feel uncomfortable cause im having dyspnoea amd some chest pain indeed. There was a little purse lid breathing and I really feel that my asthma is coming back after 10 years of remission. It is possible, i don't really know. I am so not wanting to get sick, cause i shall become a doctor who's job is taking care of the sick.

I wanted to look normal, sound normal, having a perfect healthy life, and any fever paroxysm. Really hope to be cured soon. I mean fast.

My 19th Ramadhan

Yipeeeeee, Ramadhan is coming, people start up packing for their own good. Now, it's 5.30 in the morning, i've just finished having sahur before buckling up to the surau for subuh's prayer.
Really getting on so much excitement, mustering all the strength i have to get through Ramadhan with full of devotions and perseverance.
What I really like about Ramadhan is that it's such a beatiful, splendid, gorgeous, holy in nature, wonderful month where all the surau will be packed with people doing solat berjemaah, and we can also buka puasa together, and these things are rarely seen in some other months where people tend to become individualistic.
There's one thing which I view Ramadhan in such a precious way is that the non-muslims do respect our puasa that most of them does not eat in front us. They keep on asking some several questions regarding this precious Ramadhan which I'd love to answer. Really hope that one day they are directed to the right path and choose to embrace Islam.Insyaallah.
Well, today I'll be presenting my ms research finding, on the same time containing th have is voice of mine, so i don't screw up later. Everyhing will be fine , it's Ramadhan right. Just have to have the sence of trust and belief.

really worried

today is monday, and this friday im. going to have my formative assessment. this is the 3rd module, after this it will be the urinary module. Later it will be hari raye, together with the study week. I have tons of workloads and notes to be covered, yet i haven't startted on anything. I really don't know how to start. Someone help me please.........

boossshhss: internet deprivation

it's been 5 days without internet connection in my room. it was a total crack. so much deprived and full of unsatisfaction. well, yesterday i enjoyed watching the premier of high school musical. it was marvellous. now, im currently in my pbl room, settling with my lab members on for the medicine and society presentation .so,, bye

boossshhss: internet deprivation

it's been 5 days without internet connecull tion in my room. it was a total crack. so much deprived and full of misery.

favourites

Eversince I was a child, I have an exquisite taste on my favourite stuffs, bellonging and possessions. When I entered boarding schools in form 1, it was when I was twelve, I started to develop a different yet very unique favourites. Well, it was the the toilets and showers and I still have in now in KTSN. My favourite shower in this level, happens to be the second out of the three toilets, and the toilets, would also be the second from the right or left, it doesn't matter cause there's only three of each.

Besides, i do have a favourite elder sister. Well, actually I only have one elder sister, sof mi she just happened to be the favourites. Nothing much i could tell about her, cause she's soo much secretive on her own, rarely speaks to me about her own personal life,maybe I wasn't a perfect candidate of all.Too small to be a good listener of hers. Her name is Hazwani, currently settles in HUKM, she's in year3, while i'm in year 2. Both have an excellent passion of medicine. But she took it first, cause she two year older than me.

I don't really have a social life, newer ever had a boyfriend of my own, simply shares the excitement of having boyfriend from my friends which already have one. And, unfortunately, for the sake of telling, i don't event have a favourite boy, which im looking forward to start a relationship. My level of immaturity, really making me stuck in the isle of single ladies, where now, im currently a member in the ladies single group, it was a group in friendster established by a friend of mine, with her konco-konco, whim just happened to be single also.

Well, there's no harm in being sinle. It does not, i repeat, does not impose such threat to any humankind.Im still young after all.

wow,what a night.

i was typing post yesterday night, somewhere around ia.m, which just happened to be today's morning. But, i was so sleepy back then, so i accidently slept with my computers on, and you know what, the next thing I know is that this genuine computer of mine has already be detected 3 viruses on the net, two infosteakers, and one trojan virus.Wow, that's the good thing about having a auto protect in your pc.
Now, it;s just happened to be 5 in the morning, this computer has been on for 4 hours without nobody tuning on it, I guess it has been a really exhausted day for this computer to ever withstand such threat. The good thing is, the battery was on in here, I took in out and it was on the AC power, billings will severely be increased in this college, due to some irresponsible owner like me.

Well , today is the 3rd of september, my youngest sister is having her UPSR (it's a formalized test in Malaysia for those in standard six). Ireally hope she'll do where cause none of her elder sister are there to confort her and so. Hoping that my mother will be supportive enough to keep her on going. She's a really bright and brilliant girl, except she's extremely naughty and definitely, a very small , too-much-pampered maniac.

When I had my UPSR in 1999, it was 8 years ago, i do remember that the papers were in blue color. So, it just happened to be that when i asked my sister what does she feels now, she answered that she was about to go out as a commander in the second world war, fighting against the Japanese army wearing some funny blue uniforms. Well, it was more to the symbolic of the questions papers which will be in blue. Funny right, some little kids nowadays.

Whatever the questions is, i believe that my sister is going to do good. She's the smallest in our family, the person that ends and closes the records made by her previous excellent sisters, I guess. My sister and an elder sister of mine, which is also doing medicine in HUKM, she's in third year now, is really hoping that she'll be one of the best students in Malaysia, so that we can come out in TV, or in any news, well TV3 broadcast will be better, I supposed.

My class actually starts at 10 today, cause's were actually are having SLP(it's a self learning package) there are things that we have to learnt by ourselves without getting any lectures. Pretty much of an acting stuffs in this new medical curiculum of UKM, which my sister's badge happens o be the pioneer.
I should get going now. The bathroom awaits..

the world's heart day

i was awaken quite early today, just right enough for my subuh prayer. feeling so immobilized and unatheletic in the couple of days due to my fever, i decided to spent the earliest mornings todays, running 5km at tasik titiwangsa. I managed to override some of the great runners in the mornings, which mostly consists of tough and muscular guys.

i was drenched in sweats when it has reaches the last meters of the run. There's a big crowd in the stadium titiwangsa, some was at the astaka, and some was at the tennis court. There were all wearing a very nice blue tshirt, that has a very nicely drawn heart at the back. I was thinking about joining them for the aerobics, when i suddenly realized that most of them are old people, maybe in their late forties and fifties.

So, i started to think back why is it only the oldies who cares about heart? and what happened to the youngsters. still sleeping , i guess.

since i went out jogging and sometimes running, and practising pacings every evening, providing that its not raining, i reliazed that that the tasek itself has been a sanctuary for couples to go out , datings, walking on the jogging track, which definitely annoys me cause it really blocks my way. They don't really care to ever use the nice heart of theirs, to do some sporting activities while the circulation is still good.

This is one thing i learnt in one of those medicine and society lecture during my first year, is that as a doctor we need to promote health prevention, like what im doing now, jogging. But i guess none of them really sees me doing that, maybe when diseases start to strike, they'll be more alert. We'll see.

my first post

well, the reason why i suddenly feel like having my own blog despite my resposibility to devote my time to study, read lecture notes, do pbl stuffs, read on respiratory pe in tailey o"connor book, it that i've finally have 24/7 wireless in my room, in own on personal labtop, on my soothering bed and not having to think of any cost cause it's free. That is call"THE COMFORT OF STAYING IN KTSN1".

So, today is the first of september and its my first attempt as a blogger myself, perhaps i should be posting everyday, providing that im not too tired after finishing clinical classes at hukm in the evenings.

This is also my first afebrile day after a week of febrile paroxysm, which it think it a FUO(fever of unknown origin) I don't even went to reedy clinic ,thinking that im a better upcoming doctor than the reddy himself and his konco-konco. Maybe he didn't know how to diagnosed fuo.

Terribly, very poignant merdeka celebration , i was in bed curling two lapis of blanket, and tears rolling down my cheecks having no one to even care that i'm sick.
Never mine, it was never a fair world after all.