the day when OSCE triad finished

when we all felt pleasure

still having it, day 3

im not really stable, left side is much heavier. hope it will wear off soon...

thighs are flaring up

left side is so much pain. barely move my left shoulder. anyway, today's a good day, friday...hoping to fill up the ophthal log book...

this headache is killing me

had a temperature today.very2 hod. now ,reciding.hate to say this but diane is making more and more heachache, dunno when can i stop..thingking of using yasmin next month, which will be the month of final xm

again

today, i got tired.again headache wiith diane. bought a nice aerochamber today. rm78, so i no longer have to suck the inhaler out when my chest hurts...its totally nice

ent finished

today, 1st day of ophthal after finish ent. i don't have to be scared anymore cause my supervisor is unlike the previous one. what a great relief. today, spending so much time seeing so much eye...cataract,,,my friend eye.... a good first day to start with.
don't really feel strong as asthma is still active...found myself taking a lot of medicine after ent...singulair, nasonex,pulmicort, controloc...diane,ventolin,,,to be taken everyday...

why

i hate this

woke up in the morning, still febrile..yesterday i thought it began to ease.
im fed up with this sore throat, a temperature. i do nothing except sleep this whole day..

best on call ever

ive just finished my ent oncall 1 hour ago, start on early morning. we were tagged with a very nice medical officer who later treat us for dinner at KFC....

had a great day, a lot of teaching...exploring our own hospital.....which is just so incredible to have a great fun day like this especially on call

now, i knew why i was sick the whole week...God wanted to give something nice a meaningfull to me by the end of the week

i have to be strong,,, and patient

hari nie dah kene balik

dengan along..bukan ngan mak..tak best

my other 2 sisters wii be back

today there's another 2 case for autopsy, so there's 5 cases autopsy dis week.its so lucky to those people not going back dis week...
along and ana will set off from kl around 3 today

2 cases

there is 2 cases for autopsy today, but im at home. there's a total of 3 cases dis week, and if im at school, i would have finished all autopsy observed, as now, i've already observed 7.
Again, i couldn't sleep last nite. i play computer until 2.15 am, started to lie down after than, and find myself could not sleep. then, only aroud 4 i managed to sleep, woke up at 9.30 in the morning, feeling tired with the funny heart thing.

its1.10 am in the morning

now, im trying to figure this disheveled matter out on what's wrong with me... the ddx will be..
1) uncontrolled asthma
2) EIA
3) vcd(vocal cord dysfuction-voice hoarseness)
4) anxiety which looks like asthma
5) depression...
6) im just lonely and im scared.
im just tired with all of these symptoms. hope it'll get away fast.

i have nothing to say

yesterday was a bad asthma day to me. i had few not stop attacks,and im tired. i couldn't sleep last night. feel giddy and restless.
today i felt much better .

chest still hurts today

i don't feel really fine. im tired and the chest hurts.. it started again while i was cooking in the kitchen. today ive finished study on anatomy of ear.
Now, proceding to physiology of hearing and balance, but mom wanted me to help her with her computer. It's really difficult top study at home cause my mom doesn't understand my needs to study..

im at home

ive reached home at 6 pm today. give dad the brief case ive , lucky thing he loved it. only mom and dad and me at home now.they'll be working for the next 5 days. im all alone at home..................

the evening

ive just finished todays session of bengkel solat ketika sakit.
i couldn't go out jogging rite now, no evening jog, so ispent my time oroning the newly washed clothes.
i couldn't jog rite now coz my chest hurts . it started to hurt more since last nite. i couldn't sleep coz i had asthma attack ealier and i was coughing a lot. chest hurts, im tired, its very2 tiring to breath.
now it still hurts, i even find it difficut to walk.
everytime i walk a fast pace, my heart pounds so loud, and it hurst so bad. i feel as if my chest gonna explode.
dunno when this will go off. hope tomorrow i'll be fine. don;t want mom to see me sick . she'll gone berserk.

bye psychiatry posting

today is the last day of my wonderful psychiatry posting. spent todays morning observing forensic case . the evening, we went to the wards and have the last chat with the patients. we had a great laughs and some new patients also came and talk with us.
i had such a fun day today. gonna miss prof hamid and the psychiatry posting as well

after this is triad

b4 ssm meeting with prof

with aforementioned, i went to jln masjid india.
found a nice briefcase. bought it for ayah for father's day
dunno whether he like it or not
bu t i like it

the illness

Having bronchiol asthma is really boring ,as it can lead to depressive illness like what prof hamid says. it was raining outside since two hours ago, im so cold inside. the thing is my chest hurts all this while. when cold comes, i feel that my chest thightens, wheezes came very prominent, salbutamol does not relieved fast, need to wait for 15 minutes for it to work.
it was the thing i dislike most, when my chest hurts, i have to work hard to brath. sometimes when it get worst, i felt that one breath is about one ringgit. very difficult to breath.

a boring evening

it was raining until 7.15pm.
i used to go out and play. yesterday we played volleyball. it was very nice, get to play with the girls and boys. boys don't missed balls much, fortunately we don't have to run for the ball when no one is taking itt.
and yet today, i've find myself having nothing to do
and the study group today was cancelled. we were supposed to discuss on past year questions.
but never mine,i have a plan on what to do........
semester break starts this saturday, and the heat was tense. everybody couldn't wait to go back home, especially me.

im good

fever has already subside, i no longer get asthma attack, which a pleasant thing to me cause i got to do anatomy notes for ent group discussion this wednesday

weekend in ktdi

i had a nice morning today, playing badminton in the morning. doing some stuffs later in the morning., study group at 3 . and enjoyed the mee jawa brought by aina in the evening. now its 8.37 pm, i had ssm meeting tonight/
my life is so simple. wonder will it remain the same 5 year or 10 years later. maybe that time, i start my own family, get busy with the kids... i might not even have time for myself later like what im enjoying now.
everything i did is about me.everyting ive talked about is me. its me all the way. i felt alone and empty, but its nice sometime.
psychiatry posting is just 1 week lefi and im looking forward to ent posting in 2 weeks time.

i don't have much time

probably now, i had recurrent fever, asthma attack becomes so frequent, 3-4 times per day, dyspneic at nigh, tachycardic in the morning... this whole thing was tiring, i didn't get much time to study now. I'm just tired

my ssm group

they were intense. they wanted to do lab, im not keen on it. so now the research is upside down. im disorganized